Ashley: And then there was THREE!

I really was going to make an effort to keep up with this, but our anniversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas, school, Karley's first birthday, and family all got in the way. I'm really going to try to keep up with it now.

Karley is a true miracle. After 5 pregnancy losses, I honestly did not think I'd ever be blessed with a child but when we least expected it there she was. Our little blessing. Our perfect angel. My daughter.

I found out I was pregnant May 19, 2011. I really didn't expect a positive result at all, but the signs were all right there in front of me when I had this insane NEED for a banana split from Friendly's, then when we got there to get it I was too sick to eat my meal, let alone the dang ice cream. I decided to take the test and there it was... a blaring positive. I was honestly so freakin' scared. I cried all the way to the doctor's office to get blood levels because I was afraid of losing this one too and I wanted her so bad. I couldn't handle losing another one and I didn't. Pregnancy wasn't the easiest and gradually got worse at the end. I had a terrible delivery, but none of that mattered because I had my beautiful daughter. I won't bore you with the details of my pregnancy and delivery, so I'll just move on to the fun stuff... KARLEY!

She was born January 20, 2012 at 10:35 AM weighing 8 lbs 11 oz and 21.5 inches long. She was the most beautiful thing I ever saw.

It's amazing how quickly these little humans slip into our hearts. I can't imagine my life without her and really don't know what I did in my life before her. It's like I can't remember my life before she was born. Having her was the most incredible experience and she grows so quickly. It seems like every day she does something new. I remember her first smile, her first giggle, her first time crawling, her first steps... even in the struggles of motherhood, I can honestly say that I have enjoyed EVERY moment of her. The late nights, the frustrating moments, the exploding diapers, the chaos... it adds a little spice in my somewhat dull life and I wouldn't change not one crazy moment of it. When you have a child everyone always says "Enjoy every moment, they grow too fast". This is probably the best advice ever. I know Karley is only 14 months, but it is so true. It feels like just yesterday I was cooing over my newborn in the hospital and now she's running around like a crazy baby and getting into everything. We have so much to look forward to with her in the future, but for now I'm going to enjoy every moment of her now. It won't be long before she doesn't want my hugs and kisses and she won't "need" me anymore. I don't want to regret not one thing. I don't want to look back and say "I wish I would have..."